Im insane

I hate myself to be such an insane ppl..

always suddenly hapi like hell,

suddenly sad like no others there w me...

im totally lost..

i tried to find myself ways tht i can think of to help myself..

yet i realise there is no cure for me..

it all just a temporary medicine to take my pain away...

when the effect gone away, im still in pain again..

i found that my heart locked so deeply..

i wanted to fnd my key yet i cant..

what the hell is going on?

Even me is not the key of myself?

i hardly trust or open my heart to anyone...

although there are some that i tried to step nearer to them...

but i scared....i scare once i go one step future,they run away again..

i need a hug to cure my painess of lonely...

but who should i ask a hug for?

i shy to ask for it from my frd...

cz my pain oways happen jus a sudden....

its like a drug

im addicted to it ...

although it kills me..

god i pray

pray with my sincere heart... 

may one day i die along with this pain

or

may i find my key of heart...